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It's hard to believe I haven't posted or submitted anything during the entire time I’ve had this account. I feel lazy and foolish. But on the other hand, it’s amazing what can happen in the span of only 8 months. No, I haven’t gotten pregnant and I haven’t gotten married but I have moved from Indiana to New York City which are about as different as one can get without moving to another country. (Been there, done that.)

I’m living in the Hudson River Valley, which makes me think of the Hudson River Valley painters, which makes me think that I should really remember their names. I’ve got a great job (but sadly not in art) and I’m working hard on getting my life back on track.

Which is not to say that I’m having a major depressive episode or bi-polar or anything like that. It’s a much more fundamental thing that I’m trying to do. I’m trying to find out who I am and what I want to do for my next 75 years on this planet. When I’m old and wrinkled, when I need bionic eyes and ears and my hip is made of a complex titanium alloy, I want to be able to look back at my life and think, “You did good. You LIVED.”

And right now, I feel like I haven’t really been living through my 20s. My father always said that your 20’s is the most difficult decade. Caught between the stability of your childhood and the experience of your 30s, your 20s seems to be a time where you can easily lose your way, wander deep into the woods of the psyche and never really come out again. While I admire the young artists around here who are producing work that shames my own (and my *$&%ing art degree) I also take a little bit of comfort in knowing that a 17 year old living at home simply has more time, energy and luxury to spend crafting a shiny plastic looking picture from boot legged Adobe CS3 or Painter.

I don’t.
I work.
I eat.
I sleep.
And I do it over and over every day.

My life isn’t the life I thought I would be living when I was 17 years old but it’s amazing in so many other ways that I think my 17 year old self wouldn’t be completely horrified. (She would be horrified at my waist line but what is January if not a time for rebirth?)

So while I’m not racking up millions of page views a month, and you won’t find me on the front page any time soon, you won’t see me give up so easily. I’ll be taking continuing education classes at SVA in NYC and hopefully taking a few dance classes at the Ailey Extension and maybe just maybe, I’ll manage to fit in a photo shoot or two with my beautiful gothic moon goddess roomie.

In the Pipe for 2008
1.) 2009 Calendar Illustrations and Photos.
2.) Character design work for Eschaton
3.) Lose 50 lbs
4.) Pay off my CC debt
5.) Make some Avatar fan art!

Here comes 2008!
It’s gonna be a great year!